Lately I've been thinking a lot about why I chose my field of work. Not necessarily just mine but everyone's. It seems that lately everyone I talk to is not doing what they want to do, myself included. Why do I go to a Hospital everyday and help doctors by testing their patient's hematology and chemistry levels? I thought it was what I wanted to do, right? I like science, Med Techs have great job security and decent pay. But really, why am I doing this? All day at work I think about what I would be doing if I didn't have to be here. Diane, my trainer at work says that she always wanted to be gemologist, or a cosmetologist. She loves rocks and she loves hair. Why does she come to the hospital everyday too? Dave, another one of my trainers, was a pastor in a church, and then a psychologist, so why does he too come to the hospital everyday instead of doing something he loves like psychology or theology? I look at them as they talk about their past dreams they have long since given up and it truly breaks my heart. I have a few theories but none of them really explain why so many people fall into the trap of doing what is easiest instead of what makes them happy. I think it is probably a combination of fear and laziness. I vow to never fall into that trap. For now, this IS what I want to be doing. I am still too young in this field to reject all it has to offer and I know that there are things for me to learn and to love, I just have to find them.
However, there is nothing in this field or any other that can lure me from what I really want to be: a Mother.
Elena Marie Moreno, My niece. Born August 30, 2008
